Tonight I told him, “Do me a favor and never talk to me again. Because I’m in love with you and I can’t not be.” And walked away without another word.
For the first time, I meant it. And for the first time, I hope he actually listens. For the first time, I hope that’s the last time I’ll see him. For the first time, I hope I never hear from him again.
And like always, I know this is all just a lie I’m telling myself.
Two months later
I can’t decide if you’re the best
Thing that happened to me or
I want to be back in your arms but
I don’t want you to touch my skin
I want to kiss you with my eyes but
I don’t want to see your face ever again
I want you to call me at 1am again but
I don’t want to hear your voice